“What on earth am i doing here?”
It was the middle of summer in Times Square, asking myself, “What on earth am I doing here?” It was a profound question of what it means to live in America, and more than the outward life journey, including the inner life journey. As a new immigrant to the States, I knew I had to figure out some things to be in a stable living condition. But I knew right then and there that my question was a more profound yearning to find my purpose on earth and understand what life is all about. Then a knowing that was clear as day came on to me, “ I am here to find out the answer to this question.” The Who am I? question, the What is my purpose in life question. What is the meaning of life after all? Question. I had clear awareness of my unconsciousness during that time that I needed to be on life’s journey to discover myself, who I am, and fulfill my purpose – both inwardly and outwardly.
The Lived Experience
That self-encounter was twenty-something years ago. When I look back on my life’s journey, both inner and outer, it brings a smile to my face. I experienced every part of my life, the good and the bad, the easy and the hard, the ups and downs, with an awareness and courage to put the pieces of life’s puzzle together and make sense of it. Still experiencing, still putting the remaining pieces of life’s puzzle together, but with much ease and certainty that the question I had in my heart, “What on earth am I doing here?”, it will continue to unveil itself day by day.
Inward Unlimitedness
I have gained so much wisdom, insight, and understanding about life through my journeys that I’d better start writing it down and sharing it with others! I do have the practical steps on how to make the unconscious conscious. How to get from point A to point B in life – because I have done it so many times. I have also wondered why so much awareness inside of me, and it does not match my outward persona and life. So much unlimitedness inwardly, but I have so much social intersectionality on the outside. It was all for the purpose of digging in deeper and knowing who I am and whose I am, and live out my life based on that truth, and the truth transcends all other superficial identities and labels we put on ourselves and others. Henceforth, the purpose of my life.
